end of year

so its the end of the year already one more month, where did the year go?
this year has been crazy the first part of the year things were okay but the last have of the year has been crazy with mom being sick.
In June Valerie Graduated from Collage so we had every one come out, Heidi,Kathy,April,Roni and Teegan. It was a great week with every one out and mom got to see every one but Chris and Sarah they could not make it, I know that mom felt bad because she could not go to Sarah's wedding.
Roni moved out here with us has been an ajustment for all of us.
September was crazy with mom having her Knee done and he being in and out of the hospital and nursing home, so glad she is home now and is feeling better.
I sure Miss Ione so much and wonder what life would have been if she was still around. How much are lives would have been different or would have it been a little different.
Don't you ever wonder why are lives change so much and if you could change it to the way you want it to go would you change it?
Like they say you are on the right path but how do you know its the right path and if you could look ahead and see two paths and saw what both paths would turn out to be would you choose the right one or would you choose the other road as they would say and not feel bad about it.
I some times feel so bad because I think that Heidi is mad at me deep down because I moved away and left her where she is in a place she don't want to be and a Job she don't always like. I feel guilty when she calls me some times I just don't have anything to say and some times I thinks she gets mad at me cuz I don't talk to her that much. I miss her very much every day!

End of Year

can you believe its almost Thanksgiving and then Christmas then a new year. This year has gone by so fast, the best month of the year was went every one came out for Val's graduation and to see mom but I am a little upset about that because I wanted pictures of all of us together but it never happened I think that would have been the last time all of us would get together with mom. because it cost so much to fly out here to see her and she will never be able to fly again with all the machines and oxygen.
Roni moved in with us until she gets a place of her own, its okay but her dogs drive me crazy sometimes we have cuddles and she likes to bark a lot but dude likes to chew and scratch and when he does that he makes the whole house shake.
I sure hope Valerie gets a job soon she is a medical Assistant.

Crazy months

I guess its been awhile that I have put anything on this blog but sometimes I don't know what to write but I also think that the only one that reads it would be Heidi and so she already know anything I put on here but here goes September 21 mom had knee surgery the surgery went very good but her health was bad but she ended up having her heart flutter or abnormal what every you want to call it, so she had to stay in the hospital for a few weeks but the doctor said that she has COPD we already knew that she had that for a while and I guess it has gotten a little worse so they decided she need some rebah and went into the nursing home for 2 weeks some times I think that she just wanted to come home and she was not ready I know it was hard for me because I feel like I need to go see her every day and its very hard to be their I don't like the smell and I don't like the feeling I had about the nursing home I know it was good for her and it helped me but its not any easier. so I know that her breathing will not get any better her heart is not doing that great she has abnormal heart and if she don't take her medicine then her heart beat will go up and then that makes her have a hard time breathing.
I know that Mom is 75 years old and she has a good life and I know that when its her time to go its will be hard but we know that some time it will happen, I know that I will not be ready but we all will take one day at a time when it happens and it will be one of the worse days.
Mom came home for two weeks and I thought I was doing a good job with her but she is now in the hospital again from her not taking her medicine.