Wow its been 8 months since I have been on my blog guess I forgot I had one for a while its not like any one reads it but me and then when I do read what I put from before it makes me sad. I am feeling very depressed and having a hard time with it all I want to do is cry the last few days, so much emotion going on with me, sitting here in the front room watching TV with mom and she is watching Ruby not sure why I am sitting here watching it. It makes me sad cuz I think that I relate to her so much and I am struggling with my weight. want to loss this weight so much but having a hard time with it cuz I think I am afraid to loss this weight some times I think what is the point know one cares and know one is ever going to want me.
Know ones want to be around me. Missing Kathy so much.
so scared my thought get so dark and makes me feel so down. want to know where my Happy place is I don't think I have one. does every one have one or is that a dream that will never come true. Is it all made up crap that your told when you are young. Do Dreams come true? What are my Dreams I don't have any and the ones I have will never come true. NEVER Come True, They don't exist any more!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
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Kids
Valerie, Kailie and Logan came over tonight and we went to walmart for a few things. Logan said to me I need money and I said what do you need money for and he said he wants Spiderman Ice Cream. He has been getting Ice Cream from the Ice Cream Truck. Its a mazing what a 2 year old will say.
The last few time Logan has come over when he wants something he will say my name, I think that he said my name at least 14 or more times tonight.
Family Time
Roni came up this weekend and val and the kids came over to see her. We have been out side playing ball and frezbee.
Kailie's Friend Laurn came over, she has no brothers or sisters in family, so I think she had fun playing with us, Jesse didn't come over and I am upset because he told me that he would come over and then didn't.
I guess its his loss that he didn't get to spend time with us.
Roni has a Wii that she brought up with her and we played on it, we got mom to play as well the games were bolwing and golf mom really liked golf.
We had dinner and after dinner mom said how do you turn this on so I can play golf. Roni and I played bolwing and baseball after everone left last night, what a work out!
The tennis one will give you a good work out to.
Kailie's Friend Laurn came over, she has no brothers or sisters in family, so I think she had fun playing with us, Jesse didn't come over and I am upset because he told me that he would come over and then didn't.
I guess its his loss that he didn't get to spend time with us.
Roni has a Wii that she brought up with her and we played on it, we got mom to play as well the games were bolwing and golf mom really liked golf.
We had dinner and after dinner mom said how do you turn this on so I can play golf. Roni and I played bolwing and baseball after everone left last night, what a work out!
The tennis one will give you a good work out to.
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