End of the Month

So can't believe its the end of the month and the end of the year, where did this year go? Its been a crazy year for me mom has been in and out of the hospital more in the last 4 months then all year, she had knee surgery and it was good but bad at the same time it took a toll on her heart not sure if we were going to lose her this year it was touch and go for a while, but she is doing so much better and don't have any pain in her knee so that is good.
In June this year we had Roni move up here with mom and I and her 2 dogs its been an adjustment for all of us but its going okay.
We had Valerie's Graduation and so every one came out for that we had Heidi,Kathy,April,Roni,and Teegan out here and the only thing that makes me mad about that is we didn't get a picture of all of us with mom and that is what I wanted to do, we had a great week.
I wish Ione could have been here I sure Miss her so much!
Don't you ever wonder what Life would have been if she was around?
How much are lives would be different.
Would you choose the path you are on now or would you have gone the other way?
If you had a chance to see the path you are on now or the other path would you stay on the path you are on now or would you choose the other one?
How do you know you are on the right path?
Why do we have so much change in are lives? Why does things have to change so much?
some times I feel Guilty about moving out here and leaving Heidi out there she don't like where she lives and I know she don't always like her job, but who does some time I don't like mine either sometimes.

end of year

so its the end of the year already one more month, where did the year go?
this year has been crazy the first part of the year things were okay but the last have of the year has been crazy with mom being sick.
In June Valerie Graduated from Collage so we had every one come out, Heidi,Kathy,April,Roni and Teegan. It was a great week with every one out and mom got to see every one but Chris and Sarah they could not make it, I know that mom felt bad because she could not go to Sarah's wedding.
Roni moved out here with us has been an ajustment for all of us.
September was crazy with mom having her Knee done and he being in and out of the hospital and nursing home, so glad she is home now and is feeling better.
I sure Miss Ione so much and wonder what life would have been if she was still around. How much are lives would have been different or would have it been a little different.
Don't you ever wonder why are lives change so much and if you could change it to the way you want it to go would you change it?
Like they say you are on the right path but how do you know its the right path and if you could look ahead and see two paths and saw what both paths would turn out to be would you choose the right one or would you choose the other road as they would say and not feel bad about it.
I some times feel so bad because I think that Heidi is mad at me deep down because I moved away and left her where she is in a place she don't want to be and a Job she don't always like. I feel guilty when she calls me some times I just don't have anything to say and some times I thinks she gets mad at me cuz I don't talk to her that much. I miss her very much every day!

End of Year

can you believe its almost Thanksgiving and then Christmas then a new year. This year has gone by so fast, the best month of the year was went every one came out for Val's graduation and to see mom but I am a little upset about that because I wanted pictures of all of us together but it never happened I think that would have been the last time all of us would get together with mom. because it cost so much to fly out here to see her and she will never be able to fly again with all the machines and oxygen.
Roni moved in with us until she gets a place of her own, its okay but her dogs drive me crazy sometimes we have cuddles and she likes to bark a lot but dude likes to chew and scratch and when he does that he makes the whole house shake.
I sure hope Valerie gets a job soon she is a medical Assistant.

Crazy months

I guess its been awhile that I have put anything on this blog but sometimes I don't know what to write but I also think that the only one that reads it would be Heidi and so she already know anything I put on here but here goes September 21 mom had knee surgery the surgery went very good but her health was bad but she ended up having her heart flutter or abnormal what every you want to call it, so she had to stay in the hospital for a few weeks but the doctor said that she has COPD we already knew that she had that for a while and I guess it has gotten a little worse so they decided she need some rebah and went into the nursing home for 2 weeks some times I think that she just wanted to come home and she was not ready I know it was hard for me because I feel like I need to go see her every day and its very hard to be their I don't like the smell and I don't like the feeling I had about the nursing home I know it was good for her and it helped me but its not any easier. so I know that her breathing will not get any better her heart is not doing that great she has abnormal heart and if she don't take her medicine then her heart beat will go up and then that makes her have a hard time breathing.
I know that Mom is 75 years old and she has a good life and I know that when its her time to go its will be hard but we know that some time it will happen, I know that I will not be ready but we all will take one day at a time when it happens and it will be one of the worse days.
Mom came home for two weeks and I thought I was doing a good job with her but she is now in the hospital again from her not taking her medicine.

Thoughts

So much has happened in the past few weeks, Mom got her knee down and is still in the hospital she has had some heart trouble with this surgery but her knee is getting better, she can bend it and stand for a few minutes and that is really good.
I some times feel bad because I don't want to be up to the hosptial all the time but at the same time I know its got to be hard to be in the hosptial all by your self all the time, I have been lucky and not had to stay in the hosptial all night before or had any surgerys.
I think its hard when you have so much responsablitys to work and try to be at the hospital at the same time, need to work as much as possible.

Remember

So Yesterday Ione would have been 50 Years old. I know that I miss her so much and I know that all of us miss her so much, makes you wonder how live would have been if she was around today to help us all in life, I think that are life would be totally different, but you can't what if because that is not how things work.
We all have to take one day at a time and try to live are life's to the fullest.
Life is to short to worry and stress over little things but that is what most of us do and can't help it.
Valerie and the kids and Roni were over and spent the evening with us and we had dinner and then we played scrabble. Val had a glove that Logan was playing with and went to blow it up for Logan and it pop and she jumped because it scared her and we all laughed and Logan was laughing as well it is so funny when he laughs.
sitting around the table with family makes you feel like Ione was around to laugh with us. we miss you Ione and love you so much!

August 9.2009

So I know its been a while, I have no real reason why I have not been on my blog, just been busy. I work all day and come home and work more but its getting hotter at work and when I get home I don't want to do anything but cool off. The last few days its been in the upper 80's almost 90's and its only a few degrees cooler in the house for some reason. I guess we got lucky in July, its usually 100 degrees outside but has not been that bad out here as much, so I guess that August is going to be Hot!

Sad Day

Today we got news that my Aunt Josephine past away, she was having a hard time the last few months in and out of the hospital, she had lung cancer and went through a lot in the last few years. This last time she was on a breathing Machine and they took her off it on Monday morning and she died Tuesday some time, Mom called the hospital and talk to her a few minutes after she had the tubes out and told her she loved her, I guess you could say she said goodbye to her sister.
We have lost so many people in this family. Just a little while ago, we lost are Aunt Flo on my dad's side of the family.
I am tired of Death! I know their are some people that have never lost family members in this world and don't understand but this family has had more than are share and a lot of the family members on both sides of the family have been cancer or heart problems. I would never wish Cancer on anyone because it takes its told on everyone not just the person that has the Cancer.

A Big Step

well I have a crazy last few weeks, Heidi,Kathy,Roni,April,Teegan all came out to surprised mom and go to val's graduation. we had val and her kids come over as well so my little house had lots of people in it for a week. It was so nice to see everyone and I know mom was so happy to see all of them as well.
I had a good day today took mom to the dentist and she was fitted with new teeth after being on the list for 2 years.
came home and had dinner and Logan wanted to go out side to ride his bike and Roni and already took the two dogs out for a walk and kailie was on here bike so I thought maybe Cuddles would like to go for a walk as well she has been a strange dog because she will not go out side the front door for a long time, I am glad about that but I wanted to take her on walks and could not get her to put the leash on but today for the first time I got the harness and the leash on and we finally got her out the door and down the drive way and down the street for a little ways. wow that was so cool and now I just hope I can get her out tomorrow as well.

Lazy Day

I was checking my Horoscope today and this is what it said:
You need to get in touch with your twin- Literally if you do have one, and spiritually if not. Your amazing energy should help you find even closer connections than you thought could exist.
So I called Heidi and she was almost home from the airport from spending a week out here with me, hope everyone had a good time.
I miss her already!
I had a good week, we may have not done much and stayed at the house alot but just having them here was nice.
April's Son Teegan is a hand full but is very smart and just like his mom, I think she is going to have her hands full with him as he gets older.
Val's graduation went well, I am so proud of Valerie for graduating from collage she worked hard. I was a little disappointed that we had planed a BBQ and not one of her friends that she invited showed up.
we still had a good time and I got sunburned the day was nice the weather was good.

Zoo

So I went to the Zoo with Heidi, Val, April, Jesse, Kailie, Teegan and Logan today and it was hot and cloudy, wouldn't you know it the clouds got darker and darker and it started to thunder and then we had the storm, (rain, thunder, lighting) it got bad and we got stuck in the rain and of course every time I go to the zoo with Val and the kids It Rains.
Had a good time the kids were good.

crazy Day!

What a Crazy Day this has been, I have to tell you that it started on Friday when I got up for work, I went to work and it was a hot and humid day then came home and worked in the yard until 9:30 pm, stop for dinner then after working all day I did a load of laundry did up the dishes, mopped the kitchen floor and made up two beds clean, then waited for Teegan, April, Kathy and Heidi arrived about 4:30 am and we talked until 5:30 am then I got up at about 7:30 or so and helped mom with her breakfast got her a shower and then left to get my hair cut and ended up getting mom, Kathy, Jesse. Kailie and Logan their hair cut as well then went to the store with Val, Logan, Kailie, April and Teegan that was interesting at the least. we came home and had lunch and then rested for a while then Heidi and Kailie and I went to home depot so I could get a gate for the back yard, then we went to walmart and I came home and started dinner and watched Teegan and Logan play together.
It will be interesting to see how things are tomorrow when Roni and her Friend comes in from driving and then we have to unload the truck.

Had a bad storm and had a tree down and it hit my gate that I just put up and it is destored, so I have so much work to do and the rain needs to stop so I can mow the grass.

A few

Just a sunday afternoon

SO I have 5 days and then my house is going to be full of people, I have tried to keep all of this a secert its suppost to be a surprise for mom but its been hard to keep this secert.
Kathy said something about April and Teegan getting a ticket so mom thinks some one is coming out. Oh well she will be suprised in way.
I am feeling down today, missing people that are not in my life anymore and up set about my computer, the internet is working but google is not and can't get my emails to work.
Its going to be very hot out tomorrow so work is going to be hot again, UGH!!!

Logan's Birthday Party

Logan's Birthday was yesturday and we had dinner which was turkey roast and mashed potato's with corn and broccali, Logan loves turkey roast he ate 4 peice of turkey and some mashed potato, I was still eating when Logan got down.
before dinner we went to target to let Logan get a gift for his birthday he got some cars with deago on them, when I was eating Logan said Heather look at this and he was showing me his cars, he was standing on the chair in the front room and I was at the table witch is not that far from each other because the house is small, any way every time Logan would drive his car up the chair he would say Heather look at this I drive down and then he would say Heather look at this I am going up the other side.
I need to count to see h0w many times he says my name because he said it about 10 times just in about 5 mintues with him playing with his car.
Logan is now 3 and he is starting to talk alot better now. I love this age when they start to learn new things and understand what they are all about, I think his favorite word is why? I like when he see a picture of him self and he will say that Logan (not that's me) its so cute or he will get in one of those moods where he is spiderman not Logan he will say no I am spideman not Logan.
we had a good night I think he liked his stuff he got mostly clothes but they had spiderman and cars on them so that is what he likes.

I was reading Heidi's blog and she was telling how she went and said good bye to Aunt Flo, she said that she has good memories of Aunt Flo and all the times we went over to her house, I remember one time the guys went Deer Hunting, I think mom was working nights then any way Heidi and I stayed with Aunt Flo and we had a good time talking, hanging out. The guys came back and had a deer the poor thing. We did go over to Aunt Flo alot for a long time and then we stop for some reason. I saw Aunt Flo a little before I came out here to live but I always thought about her and wonder how she was doing. I sure Miss talking with Aunt Flo.

Poems

Poems by: Nancy Woods

Three Sisters

We are the Three Sisters of Fire and Earth and Water.

Without us, nothing lives or gorws.

We are the Three Daughters of Sun and Moon and Stars.

Without us, no path exists through the universe.

We are the Three Wives of Birds and Trees and Animals.

Without us, there would be no wings or roots or bones.

We are the Three Mothers of Clouds and Wind and Rain.

Without us, our children would go hungry.

We are the Three Friends of Beauty.

Without us, flowers would look like stones

We are the Three Grandmothers of Wisdom.

Without us, men would only speak of war.

We are the three Aunts of Endurance.

Without us, what would survive?

Long Day

So I have been busy with work, we have had a few orders that I had to work over time, which is good but the only thing is the heat in the building and working 12 hours a day makes you tired.

yesterday I was feeling a little stuffed up because of all the dust because the machine I usually run had not been ran for a few weeks so the dust was pretty bad, any way I took a benadryl only one pill and I was so tired about an hour after I took it that I was dosing when I was trying to run the machine and Karen my coworker was saying Heather wake up. I ended up wrapping the material about 6 times I started to wake up after about a few hours but I learn my lesson don't take benadryl when I am at work.

Kids

So Today was the last day of school for Jesse and kailie and they got thier report cards. Kailie got A and B for all her class and Jesse got A and B and C and one D but he made up the D from an F and he got most of his grades up for the year. I am so proud of Jesse I know how hard it is for him because he doesn't like school.

My First Blog

I don't know what I am suppost to write but I thought this will be funny!